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Quotes That Seem Significant to Me Right Now

People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did. But people will never forget how you made them feel.
-Maya Angelou

Trust is, everybody is going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
-Bob Marely

Always behave like a duck - keep calm and unruffled on the surface, but paddle like crazy underneath.
-Unknown

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
-Marilyn Monroe

Dear People

So there is this big trend going around blogs right now called "Dear Boys". At first I thought it was kinda dumb but I think I am starting to like it more and more and I think that I will give it a go and see what happens.....except I'm gonna do it my way, cuz I'm Allie. Instead of limiting to just boys, it will also be including girls. But nobody will be able to tell which is which. Ha! Anyways, here goes nothing:



Dear Wilson,
I liked you alot better before you started showing your face.
Weirded out,
Tim "The Toolman" Taylor


Dear Kermit,
Its true. I'm into you. You're mine and everyone else better back off or I'm gonna go ninja on them!
Adoringly,
Miss Piggy


Dear Nacho,
You're fat. You smell bad. You can't cook worth a crap. But man, can you make me laugh! Let's have some toast some time! My place? 
Hungry,
Encarnacion


Dear Peanut Butter,
You're sticky and kinda gross alone. Don't you think we work so much better together? :)
Awaiting our playdate,
Jelly


Dear Jasmine,
I don't need you to take care of me! I'm an adult and I'm potty trained. I don't need you to hover over me. Sheesh!
Maturely,
Raja


Dear Iron,
Thanks for getting all the kinks out of me. You're pretty hot and do exactly what you are made to do. Unfortunately, you are just too quiet and only have like 3 functions. But thanks for everthing else!
Crisp and clean,
Wrinkly Shirt


Dear Caffeine,
SHUT UP!!!! 
Now deaf,
Grumpy



....that's all I got, I'm afraid....

Goodbye Semester from Hell!

WORST semester of my LIFE!!!!

What a fluke of a school semester! Holy time management issues! Terrible group projects. Boy drama. Ridiculous professors. Crappy family issues. And holy-freaking-crap-my-social-life. What the??? Looking back, I feel like I was nothing but a downer this whole semester. Totally not me, totally not Allie. I'm done with that impostor. I want her dead.

And that, dear friends, is why I am overwhelmingly excited for this break and upcoming semester. Time to refresh and renew myself. A time to start over and have a clean slate...sorta. This is the first time in my life that I have been excited to make New Years Resolutions. I haven't made any for years because I never follow through with them. But this year is different. This year, I am SO excited to make goals and to have something I am working towards. This new year is going to be different because I am going to be different. You most likely will be hearing all about my resolutions in the next few weeks. I have even contemplated making an entire page on this blog to remind myself throughout the year that I have goals to be working on. I dunno, I just have this weird urge to be focusing on new things and different aspects of life. I don't want to forget the feelings I am feeling right this second. And I haven't even made up my goals yet!!! Weird!

Flash Mob

Ok everyone. I have a new goal in life: To participate / witness a flash mob. I seriously think that that would be one of the coolest things in the entire world. I mean, watch this video:


Isn't that freaking amazing?! I can't get over it! I wanna do this way bad! Maybe I can convince my friends in the stairwell to do a flash mob somewhere awesome, like the USU library or Walmart or Taco Bell. Shrug. But seriously, I wanna do something like this WAY bad!!!! 

This is a good one too! 

No Candy for Me

I feel like a child who's parent brings them into a candy shop. I am so excited, looking at all the candy and I start to salivate. I seriously cannot wait to place something sugary and delicious in my mouth. My parent keeps pointing out how delicious this candy looks and tells me that anyone who eats this candy must be so lucky! Me and the parent go from candy to candy and talk about how wonderful this candy is going to be and my excitement grows and grows. Then, abruptly, the parent's enthusiasm is completely gone with a smirk and I am told that I am not good enough to have candy. I offer to buy my own candy, but the cashier also tells me that I am not good enough to have candy. But nobody will tell me why. Out of all the confusion, I can only come up with one conclusion:

I can no longer trust the parent or the cashier. The taunting has become too much. Its time to withdrawal.

Just an Update

Blah blah blah.

I wish I had something more interesting to say but that is the best thing I could think of to open this post. My life is just so chaotic that I'm not sure even I can keep up with it!

The week before Thanksgiving break was fun. I went on a group date with Steve. We went to Kneaders for dinner and then went to the DI where we all split up into boys and girls and picked out outfits for our dates. Seriously, SO fun! After that, we went back to our apartments to grab some warmer clothes and some extra people. We then went to Old Main hill come the USU campus and went sledding for a while. Oh, and we built a snowman and then had hot chocolate. Super fun night! Oh, the night before that, Kami, Jessiqa (yes, that is how she spells her name), Amber, Morgan, and myself all went to the midnight premier of "Breaking Dawn". Oh my goodness, we had SO much fun!!! Waiting in line was a blast! We played Tourettes and CatchPhrase and laughed our booties off! As for the film, personally, I loved it. There were some really cheesy parts, but I thought it was very well done and by far the best of all the previous Twilight movies so far. The day after Thanksgiving, I went to see it was my cousins Mandy and Aubree and my sisters Kristi and Kelly. I actually liked it even more the second time. I dunno why, I just really love the Twilight Saga.

Thanksgiving was pretty good this year. It was the first time I ever saw my niece and nephew in the same day, even though the two still have never met each other. The food was delicious, as usual, and there was tons of it! We didn't have as many pies as usual, but there was still like 12 different types. My frozen peppermint cheesecake got second place this year, while Emmy's strawberry citrus cream pie rightfully won first. Mmm, it was SO good! I'm salivating just thinking about it! The break was good though and much needed. I was able to space myself away from some specific people that I needed to withdraw myself from and think about my life.

I have been given the opportunity to go back down to Price to finish out the rest of my schooling in two years guaranteed. I have the option of being placed in any agency of my choosing down there for my practicum (that's just a fancy word for internship). My other option is to simply stay here in Logan, where I'm not guaranteed a spot next year, but I am guaranteed a job, which is lacking in Price. I have no idea what to do. There are so many pros and cons for both options. Some days I feel good about going back to Price and other days I don't. I just feel like something is missing, like I am forgetting about a key element, but I cannot think of what it could be. Oh well, a lot can happen in 5 months. Who knows where I will be?

PDA

Public Display of Affection. PDA. Those 3 letters alone make me cringe, like seriously.

Dear people of this world who participate in CONSTANT PDA:
Freaking stop it! 

I know I've written about my loathing for PDA before, but things don't change much apparently. But seriously, there are few things in this world that make me more uncomfortable than PDA. I'd rather lick the bottom of my shoe or eat an earthworm than have to endure a couple making out with each other.

In my opinion, when a couple can't keep their hands off each other, they are saying "I don't care about anyone else. All I care about are my hormones." Its rude, its disgusting, and it makes many, many people uneasy. Sure, there are some things that are perfectly fine, like holding hands or a hug. But its when you see these two constantly all over each other, barforama. To me, that's just proving that you don't really love the other person, you love their body. People, there is a time and place for everything. Keep your nasty hormones for a time and place where nobody else has to see it. Its a repellent. Just sayin.

Plus, if you are so touchy in public, everyone assumes what else goes on in private.

Re-Evaluation

There comes a time in your life when you just have to take a step back and re-evaluate your life. You have to question yourself; are you the person you want to be or working towards becoming so? What really matters to you? What are you willing to fight for? Who matters and who doesn't? Where are you going?

I have really taken a step back the past week or so and realized a couple of things about myself. Because this is my blog and I live in America and have freedom of speech, I am going to tell you what I have learned about myself.

  • I really care alot about people. Probably more than need-be. I genuinely care about others' welfare and happiness. If I feel like I can contribute to making their day a little brighter, I try to take that opportunity, mostly just secretly though. 
  • Piggy-backing the previous, I do not like disliking people. If I feel like I am starting to dislike someone, I feel like the way to cure that is to get to know that person better. You can't dislike someone that you understand.
  • I can be a very powerful influence for good. I have to potential to teach others and help them make good and righteous decisions if they so choose to confide in me. 
  • I am WAY too loud for my own good. I laugh loud, I talk loud, I sing loud, I whisper loud....I need to definitely be more still and need to turn on the "gentle" switch on my vocal chords. 
  • I truly love helping others. I feel so important when others feel like they can confide in me and are able to lean on me for anything. I dunno if it's selfish or not, but I would rather deal with other people's issues (or rather help them through their issues) than deal with my own. I tend to get consumed in my own problems when I'm not helping someone else. 
  • I need to be more organized. The last month or so, I have just left my stuff all over my apartment and had a messy bedroom, etc. I tend to get that way when I'm stressed, which is ironic because I feel so much more at peace when everything is in it's place. 
  • I love cooking. So much. Probably because I like eating. And I like being able to control what I eat. 
  • I adore my family. I stink at letting them know how much I love them, but I seriously would be so incredibly lost without them and their support. They mean everything to me. 
  • The Lord loves me. He is mindful of me and my afflictions and the yearnings of my soul. I really need to focus more on Him and serve Him better. Hopefully by my new efforts in helping others I can find a way to bring others closer to Him as well.
  • I find PDA (public display of affection) revolting. Barf-a-rama! Go find a freaking room!
  • My roommates are so amazing! I love Morgan and Kami and Amber SO much! The Lord clearly knew what He was doing when He put us together.
  • I can let go and still be okay. 

New Blog

Hey everyone! Just letting you know that aside from this blog, I have started another blog. The other blog will consist of random things I cook and am proud of, or things that I think the rest of the world should experience and cook for themselves. I am seriously falling madly in love with cooking!!! Therefore, I created another blog dedicated just to cooking! So, here's the link to my other blog. Enjoy! Bon appetite!

http://a-la-alleroonie.blogspot.com



Perspective

I recently have been struggling alot recently because I feel like one of my best friends has been pushing me away. That obviously really bothers me because he means so much to me and I truly value him as a friend and the role he plays in my life. But I also need to remember that people come and go from our lives and sometimes you just have to let go.
Well this is never easy for me, especially when i feel like I still need that person. So I've been really bothered because I feel like I have been losing him....until I looked at it a different way. This is going to prove to you how big of a brat I am but this new perspective I have makes me feel better about things. So here's my new perspective on the situation: I'm not losing him, he's losing me. He's the one pushing me away, this is all his choice regardless to what I try to do to repair it.
And that reminds me that attitude is everything. So is perspective.

Loneliness

I'm consumed. No words can express the loneliness I feel in my heart. When once I was surrounded by those I love dearly and who I knew loved me now stands acquaintances and friends I am getting to know better. But there are those I miss so dearly that my heart just feels so defeated.
I don't get close to people very easily. When I feel like I'm getting too close to someone, I run away. That's just how I've always been. Nevertheless, I've always had at least one person that I knew I could rely on, someone I felt close to, that I could tell anything to. Unfortunately, I don't even feel like I have one person. I felt like I had one for a while, but that person has pushed me away and changed in a way that I don't even know who they are anymore. This makes me question myself and wonder if I even know who I myself am. Who am I?!
I feel so alone. I sit in large crowds most of the time, but feel so ignored and unnoticed. It shouldn't matter, I should be able to be enough for myself. I shouldn't need anyone else. Oh, but how I ache for a friend, a TRUE friend. I feel like I can trust nobody though. Not even myself.
I screw everything up. I ruin everything. I don't know how to change. I'm lost.
Who am I?

Blue

I never had a blue blog before and I found this background and thought it was cute. Plus, blue is the color the represents relaxation and renewal, which is exactly what I'm trying to focus on with my life. Yeah, I don't have anything to say other than that. Sorry. I'm a loserface ;)

Here We Go Again...

Sorry you haven't heard from me in almost a month. Life has just been so crazy.

Another year of school. I have just completed the first week of my 4th year of college. I'm back at Utah State for the second year. Its going to be a really interesting year, thats for sure. This is the first time I have a job while being a full time student. I'm working on campus as an office assistant at the IT Helpdesk and so far, it is a pretty stimulating job. Lots of challenges but I learn something new every single shift and I seriously LOVE the girls I work with, they are just adorable.
I also am most likely no longer a social work major, which pretty much breaks my heart, but sometimes you have to make changes. At the moment, I am leaning towards majoring in public relations, but I haven't declared just yet.
I have the most AMAZING roommates! This is the fourth time I didn't request any roommates, but this is the first time I've actually known any of them before school started. I seriously feel like I just got so lucky to be placed with these girls. I feel like there is so much I can learn from each of them. Oh, its going to be a fun year with them, I can already tell.
Hmmm...what else can I tell you that you'd care to know....
I'm an aunt now! My sister had her baby on Wednesday. Brenna Jayne <3  I got to see her when she was only a few hours old and immediately fell in love with her.
Thats really all I can come up with. Perhaps my next post will be more interesting.  ;)

Something New

Ok, ok, I take full responsibility. I have the worst ADD when it comes to the design of my blog. I get so sick looking at the same thing all the time. I like to keep things moving, everchanging. A song from Pocahontas comes to mind:

What I love most about rivers is you can't step in the same river twice.
The water's always changing always flowing
But people I guess can't live like that.....

People can't live like that? Hmmm, watch me try.

As of Late

Sorry I haven't really written anything for a while. Its been a difficult last few weeks for me. But no worries, I won't get into any stupid details on here. I'll just let you know what nothingness I've been up to.


About three weeks ago, I was able to go to Price to hang out with my best
girlfriends, Stevie and Whitney. Oh man, I freaking LOVE those girls! We have such a blast with each other every time we get together and its always SO stinking hard to leave. We did lots of fun stuff. While Whitney went off and hung out with her man, Stevie and I went shopping. We grabbed some disk chairs and set them up in Walmart and sat in an isle for a good half hour just talking. Then we found water noodles and sword-fought with them. Ha! And then we left
church early on Sunday to walk around campus. We got to the fountain and I decided to dip my feet in, which turned into me standing in the fountain, which turned into my slipping and falling into the fountain. (See picture on left) It was seriously the funniest
thing that happened all weekend!



The weekend after that, I went up to Logan and hung out with Steve and my sister and brother-in-law. We went and saw Harry Potter with Lissa and John Summit. The next day was just super relaxing, just hanging out at Steve's apartment. That night, we met up with Kristi and John Baxter in Mantua for fireworks. They were so close, it was awesome!


Last weekend, I took my siblings Jessie, Erik,
Emmy, and Danny downtown Salt Lake Sunday night and we camped out for the Days of 47 parade. Wow, yeah, that was a looooong
night. The witnessed drunk men, fights, and a drug bust, to say the least. Oh man, interesting stuff. I'm pretty sure that I will never do that again. We didn't really go for the parade as much as we went to support Steve doing the Deseret Marathon. Wow, impressive! My siblings are such good sports!


This last Friday, I decided to go up to Logan at like 4:20pm. I got to Logan and went shopping for a while (cuz all my friends were busy at that time) and
then I went over and hung out for a few hours with John Stanworth. I hadn't seen him since school got out in the beginning of May and it was SO good to see him!!!! Then I went and stayed at Morgan's for the night. Oh, how I love that girl! The next day, agroup of us went up to Tony's Grove to go swimming and canoeing. So beautiful, so fun! After a few hours, we came home, showered, got cute (as in Morgan got cute, heehee) and we met up with Steve and John for dinner at Wingers. Afterwards, we hung out and watched a movie and music videos and enjoyed each other's company. Church was great on Sunday. I actually stayed for the whole block! Then Steve and John made us lunch/dinner. Yum yum! The drive home was interesting. John drove by me from Logan to Brigham City but he stopped for gas and I kept going and that's when the weather got really scary. It was raining so hard and I was terrified, but it all ended well and I got home safe. But oh man, I am SO ready to move back up to Logan and have a life again. Whoot, only a few weeks left! :)



Rant - Terms of Endearment

I don't want to use this blog as a means of complaining but I have just got to vent about something really quick.

Terms of endearment. Calling someone names like dear, sweetheart, baby, sugar-bum, sweetie, punkin, etc. Between you and your boyfriend/girlfriend, I think its totally and completely fine. Sometimes its even cute. Sometimes you can use them within your own family, like between child/parent, grandparent/grandchild, etc. I have no complaints there.
However, I do have a problem when terms of endearment are used between the same gender, mostly girls, and specifically at me. There is this lady I work with (whom I love to death; I think she's great!) but she calls me honey and sweetheart all the time. Not only does it make me feel like I'm five, but it makes me super uncomfortable. I am not your sweetheart and you are not my grandmother. You're like 5 years older than me. Its not like I have anything against her personally or this makes me dislike her, but when a girl calls me something like honey, sweetheart, babycakes, etc., it gives me the creeps and makes me want to run away screaming with my arms flailing all over the place.

Soul Surfer


I went to the dollar theater tonight with my mom and sister. They suggested we go see a movie that I really didn't hear that much about. It was a film called "Soul Surfer". Let me tell you about this movie to those who haven't heard alot about it.
This movie is based on the true story of Bethany Hamilton, the pro surfer who lost her arm do to a shark attack. I wasn't expecting much from this film because I hadn't heard hardly anything about it and hadn't seen any advertising for it. But let me tell you something: This is one of the best films I have ever seen. Aside from the story itself, the quality of the film was fantastic. There was not a single swear word nor anything that would prevent viewers of all age to watch this (except the actual shark attack, which could be scary for young kids). Another thing I really loved about this film is the emphasis on God. A huge majority of this movie was about God's plan for us as individuals and how we can't see the big picture. This movie was truly inspirational and I cried through pretty much the entire thing, honestly. I strongly encourage this movie. Watch it with your family and friends. Click below the watch the trailer.



5K Weekend


What an amazing weekend that just occurred! Saturday morning, I ran and completed a 5K! It wasn't like a big event or anything, but my stake puts on a 5K every year to encourage health and fitness and there is always a great turn out. I was really worried about doing it because I've been sick with a chest cold for the last two weeks and therefore haven't done ANYTHING physical for that amount of time. But I completed it and I was not the last one to finish! I'm not going to put my time on here though because I am kind of embarrassed but its a starting point and there is always room for improvement. I'm sure that when I do it again and am not sick and have been more consistent with my exercising that my time will be way better.
Later that day, I met up with Stevie, whom I haven't seen since November!, and we spend a few hours together for lunch and shopping at the mall. Oh my heck, I love that girl!
Sunday was great too! The Salt Lake Valley has a huge YSA activity and they had a fireside at the Tabernacle Sunday night with guest speaker Brad Wilcox. It was such a great fireside! Afterwards, they had refreshments (yeah, for like 3,000 people!) over at the Brigham Young Historic Park. And that is where I saw a bajillion friends! Friends from high school, friends from CEU, friends from Logan! It was fabulous!!! I miss all my friends!!! But seriously, seeing
all those people this weekend seriously like made my whole summer. Oh you guys, I love you so much!!! :) I hope you all are doing well!!!


Spontaneous Date

So, there I was. In my living room on a random Friday night. Watching "America's Funniest Home Videos" with my family. When suddenly I receive at text from my friend Steve.
"Allie, what are you doing in exactly 45 mins?"
This text confused me because I'm in South Jordan and he's in Logan, 2 hours apart. So I reply.
"Um, probably just watching a movie slash nothing. Why?"
"Are there any good shake places near your place?"
"Yeah"
"I'll pick you up at 9."
OMG!!! Freaking awesome! I love spontaneous get-togethers like this! I was way excited too, cuz I haven't seen Steve for a month and a half, since school ended. It was so great seeing him and enjoying his company.
This visit has made me so excited for school to start in August. I've realized how much I've missed Logan and my friends. So shout out to all those USU friends. I want you to know that you are missed by me! Hope ya'll are staying safe and having a fun summer!!! :)

Secrets of Adulthood

I came across these "secrets" recently and felt like they would be a great addition to my blog:
  • Outer order contributes to inner calm.
  • People don’t notice your mistakes and flaws as much as you think.
  • Most decisions don't require extensive research.
  • If you can't find something, clean up.
  • The days are long, but the years are short.
  • Turning the computer on and off a few times often fixes a glitch.
  • It's okay to ask for help.
  • Happiness doesn't always make you feel happy.
  • What you do EVERY DAY matters more than what you do ONCE IN A WHILE.
  • You don't have to be good at everything.
  • Soap and water removes most stains.
  • It's important to be nice to EVERYONE.
  • You know as much as most people.
  • Over-the-counter medicines are very effective.
  • Don't let perfect be the enemy of good.
  • What's fun for other people may not be fun for you--and vice versa.
  • If you're not failing, you're not trying hard enough.
  • No deposit, no return.

First Kiss

I dunno about everyone else, but I love hearing about people's first kiss stories. I think that they are just so fun and everyone (I'm quite sure) looks forward to their first kiss. I came across this video a few weeks ago on a friend's facebook wall and it seriously just makes me so happy every time I see it. This little boy is just hilarious when he gets his first kiss. He's so HAPPY! I love it!!! He makes some awesome faces too. Check this kid out!


Adorable, right?! Ahhh...

There's 104 Days of Summer Vacation...

What an interesting summer break its been so far!
Interesting things that have happened:
  • My family flew to California and went to Magic Mountain. It was AWESOME!!! They has the most intense coasters I'd ever been on! It was such a long day though. We flew out at 5am and flew home on the same day around 9pm.
  • I completed one of my summer goals, way faster than I expected if I might add, and purchased a car. I got it for a fabulous deal, a real steal! (Rhyme, ha.) This car was definitely an answer to my prayers in more ways than one. Its a manual and I am learning how to drive that and its really frustrating for me. Hopefully I'll get it down soon so I can go visit friends across the state! :D

  • Another "big" thing that's happened is that I received a letter in the mail yesterday informing me that I was not accepted into the social work program for my major up at Utah State. Great. Now what am I supposed to do with my life? What am supposed to go into? Because of this, I will have to add on at LEAST another full year before I can graduate, if that ever happens. I'll be starting my senior year of college in August and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. Sure, I have an associates degree, but really? All that is is a piece of paper, honestly. I sometimes feel like I'm just wasting my time and money at school. I love learning, don't get me wrong! But I just don't have anything to show for it and it bothers me greatly. Getting my bachelors degree just seems so far off and I honestly don't know if it will even happen at this point. Ugh, what to do?!
  • I am attending the singles ward here in South Jordan and its really interesting to see some kids from my high school class and how much they have changed since graduating. Its also kinda awesome that I am becoming better friends with people I knew in high school, but didn't have the opportunity to get to know better than an aquaintence.
Well, I think that's basically it. If I think of anything else to fill you in on, I'll let you know.

Hidden in Christ

I just came across a quote on a friend's facebook page that was just like a slap in the face to me. It touched me so much that I am now blogging about it! Here's the quote:

"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man has to seek Him to find her."

OH MAH GOSH!!! Is that not like most brilliant thing you have ever heard?!
Maybe I'm just a little crazy here, but I seriously cannot even describe how much I love this. I can guarantee that in the matter of minutes, this quote will be posted on my bathroom mirror so
that every time I look at myself, I can have a fantastic reminder how I am and who loves me more than anyone else possibly can. I am a daughter of God and I will stand as a witness of Him at all times and in all things and in all places! Hopefully, with all the free time I have this summer, I become better at losing myself in His love and becoming a better servant to Him. I will become worthy of the love He has for me.

To finish, I just have one more quote I found that I really liked:
"Dance with God. He'll let the perfect man cut in."

Change

I have changed my geographical location for the summer to my parent's house in South Jordan. I have changed the rhythm of my days. I have changed my employment. I have changed so much for the summer, I felt it appropriate to change my blog. Its more summery and bright. Um, yeah. Thats like all I've got for now. Yep. Bye.

I Know Its Today

So, I went to my little sister's musical theater performance this last week. They sang a lot of random songs from various musicals with the theme of the performance being "I Wish...". The songs sung were about growing up, being popular, relationships, etc. But there was one song that I had never heard before and it hit me like a slap in the face. I've kind of been obsessed with it the last few days. The words are cute and hilarious and basically are exactly how I feel. So, I will now share this song with you. Its from "Shrek the Musical" and its Fiona singing about waiting for her prince as a little girl, then a teenager, and then a grown woman. Enjoy!

Click here: I Know Its Today




What is Real and What Isn't

Its late and I have alot of feelings inside of myself right now and the only thing I can think to do to let them out is to blog. Depending on how I feel in the morning will determine if I delete this post or not. How exciting.

My sister always complains that I write too much about guys on my blog. Perhaps this is true, but its basically one of the only hobbies I have these days. I am stuck here, waiting for my life to begin and therefore, guys are on my mind quite a bit. So, if you don't want to read about what I have to say about stuff like this, close this window now. Simple as that.

I know I am young. I know I'm not perfect. But I am learning. I am trying to be the best person I can be, but I make mistakes sometimes. Making mistakes is a requirement for getting to know yourself, I think. Sometimes, you have to make mistakes to figure out what is real and what isn't. The hardest part is to not judge others on their mistakes. What's right for most people in most situations isn't right for everyone in every situation. Real morality lies in following your own heart and everyone's heart is different. Sometimes, that's hard to remember.

I don't really know where I am going with this. Its just kind of inside of me. I'm in the situation this bizarre yet common situation where I have fallen for a guy who had become a close friend to me and he unfortunately does not feel the same for me. At all. Surprisingly, being the way I am, its so difficult that it makes being mere friends nearly impossible for me. I'm just not that strong. I am craving summer vacation like I never have before to get away and forget those feelings. I am probably not making any sense and that is okay with me at the moment because life doesn't make sense sometimes and I think its that way on purpose. Its all in the Lord's hands. We can't always see what He wants for us; we just have to sit back and let him take the reins and trust that He knows what He's doing. Yes, easier said than done, but done it will be.

Its time to find a new hobby.

Dalai Lama's 19 Instructions for Life

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three Rs: respect for self, respect for others and responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Ten Minutes with Ali

30 Day Photo Challenge = complete! Now what to do with my blog....

So, I'm sitting at my table, listening to Ali just talk. She is one of the funniest girls I know. So, I figure as she talks, I'm just gonna sit here and document some funny things that she says. They might not make any sense to you, but they were enough to get me to laugh out loud and I found them good enough to add to my blog.

"I can't get my cookie out."
"Surprise, I am a thief."
Amy: "What would you do if you caught your husband stealing?" Ali: "I'd kiss him."
"Don't you just love the banjo?"
Me: "I won't stay long. Boys stink." Ali: "Not when they take showers!"


Sadly, this was only in a ten minute time span because I had to leave the room. But still, funny girl, that Ali.



Day 30

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss





I couldn't choose just one person who I miss, so I picked one picture with two people. This is a picture of my mother and father when I was about 7 years old. I miss them both terribly. My mother passed away when I was 10 and I lost my father not long after that. I love them both dearly.

Day 29

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile



This picture is entitled "The Kiss" taken by Alfred Eisenstaedt and I have always loved this picture. Not sure exactly why, but it is an all time classic favorite. As you will notice, it is even displayed in my blog title.
I especially like in "Night at the Museum 2" when the two kissing in the picture are just going at it.

Day 28

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of





Spiders, bugs, moths, butterflies, worms, maggots, etc. Absolutely terrified. I can't even look at this picture for too long or I get goosebumps and the chills.












Also scared of needles, shots, IVs, etc. I don't like things poking through my skin. Freaks me out.

Day 27

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member


Me and my mother

Me and my father

Day 26

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Maybe I'm psychotic, but I really thought I already did this one...oh well...
















My family means more to me than anything else. Hands down.
(PS: There is a brother missing out of this photo. Sorry Michael)

Day 25

Day 25 - A picture of your day


Despite my leg injury, I'm still planning on participating in the USU Relay for Life tonight. I've been looking forward to this for weeks and I told Steve that the only thing that would keep me from it was broken bones and death, so I have to abide by that statement.

Day 24

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

In gymnastics yesterday, I threw my ROBHS for the first time on the ground with no spotter. I threw it not once, but twice! I was super excited! I went in to throw number 3....



....but I buckled and landed wrong on my leg. I sprained my MCL and overextended my ACL. I have to wear this brace for several weeks.
If I could change something, I wouldn't have attempted number 3.

Day 23

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book



Day 22

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at


I wish I was a better person. I wish that I was better at helping other people rather than being so worried about myself. I wish I were better at comforting others. One of the goals I have for my life is to help mankind and to touch someone's heart. Hopefully, by working on these wishes, I can accomplish that goal.

Day 21

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

One thing I wish I could forget is when I crashed my car. Ahh! I'm still so bitter!




Day 20

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel





I want to go to Europe SO BAD!!!!

Day 19

Day 19 - A picture and a letter


Dear Pooh Bear:

I adore you! What is it about you that makes me love you so dang much?! Is it perhaps the fact that you are stuffed with fluff and I long to give you a nice long squeeze? Is it because you are so forgetful but never seem forget the important things? Is it because of your kind, gentle heart? Your love for honey? Your silly little giggle? Your exercise song? Perhaps, but I'm sure its more than just those mere facts. You are a great example and the best kind of person, even if you are a bear...and fictional.
Thanks a million,
Allie :)

Day 18

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Holy cow, I am pretty much terrified to post to the world my biggest insecurity. Once I point it out, people will notice it more and....ugh. Oh well. Its not called the 30 Day Challenge for nothing apparently. Here goes, I guess...


No, my biggest insecurity is not Toothless or Hiccup! Its the fact that my body, for some reason, thinks it needs to hiccup 500 times a day! I'm pretty much serious here. I counted how many times I hiccuped in one hour once and I got up to 33. Sheesh! Sometimes, they are super loud and I just cannot control them. It happens all the time, everywhere. Ugh, so embarrassing. But its all good because sometimes, when I'm among friends, its just silly and I can just laugh it off. Other times though, I'm mortified. Yikes!






My second big insecurity is my laugh. Like my hiccups, sometimes I simply can't control it! The problem is that its just a big booming laugh and I'm pretty sure people in Europe can hear it sometimes! Sigh.

Day 17

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Recently, as in the last 3 months of so, I have gotten to be really good friends with some amazing people! Each of them have impacted me in their own way and I love and value each of them dearly. I am so blessed to have had them enter my life and to be taught by all of their spirits. They are all such great people and I am a better person just by knowing them!

Special thanks to Morgan, John, Amber, Trevor, Ben, Emilee, and Steve.

Day 16

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you



Emma Smith inspires me to keep pushing forward. She went through so much in her life and stayed so strong. I can only wish to be as steadfast as Emma.



Julie Andrews inspires me because (this is going to sound so stupid) she is such a great musician. Nobody else has a wider range than her and she is always pitch perfect. I also love how classy Julie is.


And last but certainly not least, Jesus Christ inspires me beyond anyone or anything else. He is the reason I am here. He loves me regardless to how stupid I can be. He knows my weaknesses and helps me get through them. He is amazing and I cannot wait until the day I can thank Him for everything He did for me and to wrap my arms around Him.

Day 15

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

I thought it was interesting that this was the challenge of the day because it just so happens that I created a new page on my blog last night entitled "Allie's Bucket List". So, to know what else I'd like to do before I die, check that page out!




One of the most important goals I have for my life is to not only go through the temple, but to go there with my best friend and be married and sealed there for time and all eternity. It is so important to me and I simply cannot accept anything less than that.

The picture above is of the Draper Temple, which is my favorite of all the LDS temples.

Day 14

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

(Side note: Of course it would be my family members, but for the sake of variety, I'll choose someone else.)


I could not imagine my life without my bestest friend Chelsey Wakefield Taylor. We met when we were like 7 in St. Peters, MO and have just been BFFs ever since! She has ALWAYS been there for me. I know she doesn't judge me and wants the best for me. She asked me to be her Maid of Honor and I felt so special. Ahh, she's pretty much the most amazing person ever! People, I freaking adore this girl!

Day 13

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

It is just too hard for me to choose just one! So, forgive me, but I choose two! :)


My first choice is a not-so-common band named Metric. They made a big debut with the film "Eclipse", but I've known about these guys for a few years. Although some of their songs are somewhat emo, I love their sound so much! If I were to suggest a song by them that I think you should listen to, I'd say to look up "All Yours" from Eclipse. Its a great song! Definitely. But they have some other great stuff as well.






If you don't recognize these boys, I dunno if we can remain friends....Just kidding! I have always been in love with the Backstreet Boys! I was so sad when they kinda crumbled apart (which happened to be the same time the Spice Girls broke up as well. What gives?!) But I was so happy when they made a great comeback, even if Kevin decided to not rejoin them. But nonetheless, I still love them!

Day 12

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

My first thought was my family, obviously, but since they occupy like every other post with this challenge, I think I'll choose something else for now. Just know that they really were my first choice.





Not only do I love sunsets, but I love the beach. I especially love sunsets at the beach.

Day 11

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate


There is absolutely nothing I hate more than hate itself. I cannot believe how hateful some people can be! When I heard about some of the things that the Westboro Baptist Church were doing at various soldiers' funerals, I was filled with disgust. We live in AMERICA! This is supposed to be the land of the free and home of the brave. How are we going to be "home of the brave" if we have people that discriminate and press fear into their hearts? I absolutely HATE discrimination and am completely intolerant of it. When I hear about stories such as Westboro's protest and hate crimes, it makes me so sick inside. And this, friends, is exactly why I am becoming a social worker.

Day 10

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most crazy things with


Today is a tie between Stevie Robinson and Whitney Bates. Over the last few years, we've done some pretty insane things....but I freaking love these girls!




Day 9

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most




The person that has gotten me through the most is definitely my dad. He has ALWAYS been there for me and I know I can go to him for anything. He's one of the most amazing men that I know and I'm so lucky to have him in my life. I love him dearly.

Day 8

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 7

Day 07 - Picture of your most treasured item





My most treasured item(s) is my siblings, my family. They mean the world to me and I seriously don't know who I'd be without them. They are all SO amazing and bring so much into my life.

Day 6

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day












I would change places with Willy Wonka for several reasons.
1. He can eat all the flipping candy he wants!
2. He can invent and make any kind of candy he wants!
3. He can be super weird and its awesome!
4. He gets to play with Oompa Loompas.
5. He gets free haircuts.
6. Face it, his factory is freaking sweet! (pun intended)

Day 5

Day 05- A picture of your favorite memory

One of my most favorite memories is dancing as a little girl.


I danced for a professional dance company, the Performing Arts Centre, in St. Louis.








Such a beautiful grande jete!









This company helped teach me all about dance and to appreciate all styles of dance. Ahhh....good times.

Day 4

Day 04 - Picture of your favorite night

Um, just so you know, I think this one is stupid because I don't have a favorite night. So, I'm just going to have to put more than one, again. Sorry.



ANY night with Whitney and Stevie is my favorite!











Spring Break was fantastic, but when we were at the beach with the guys at sunset after driving all across the state, this was my favorite night, I think. I just felt great to be with the guys and the girls with such an amazing sunset. Plus, there was some fun after the beach as well....




And the last one I could think of was the night my sister Kristi got hitched. She had a beautiful reception and it was just a great experience!