Have You Ever Been in Love?

Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up year heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit or armor, so that nothing can hurt you. Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't you own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness. So simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. Its a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. -Neil Gaiman

Have you ever been in love? I have.

Conversation at Work

So, there I was sitting at work when Soren turns to me and says "Did you know that if every human that has ever lived was given an equal amount of stars, everyone would have a hundred billion stars?" To which I replied "I hope mine are gold stars"...and the conversation proceeded like this:
Soren: I hope I have blue dwarfs
Allie: I hope I have red giants
Soren: My blue dwarfs can take on your red giants
Allie: Nuh-uh. My red giants can step and squish your dwarfs
Soren: No way. Mine will have more armor and will be smarter
Allie: Uhhh....ha ha ha
Soren: You should put this conversation on your blog.

(Red Giant and a Blue Dwarf)

Summer Update

The first month of summer is official come and gone and I can honestly say that I've accomplished almost nothing in that time.
My schedule is the same almost everyday. I wake up, get ready for work, go to work, go home from work, watch a movie while I make dinner, hang out on the balcony with some friends, and then go to bed. Seriously, that's about it.
But lemme tell ya, I'm loving it. I feel so chill this summer! I feel like I can pretty much really do whatever the hell I want without worrying about missing out on something or people wondering what I'm up to and whatnot. For example, last week and last night, I went to bed at freaking 8:30pm! It was amazing! Seriously!
I went into the summer hoping to make some new friends and to take my social life up a notch. I've done almost the complete opposite and I'm so glad it's turning out that way. I mean, I still hang out with people on occasion. I've had Kami, Jared, Ali, and Matt all come for a visit and I've hung out with friends in the Salt Lake valley. So its not like I've cut myself off from the rest of the world. I'm just trying to spend a lot more time with myself. I've also been blessed to have roommates that I never see. Yeah, that sounds totally weird and ridiculous and I honestly would love to spend more time with Melanie, but we don't see each other very often. My other two roommates, I rarely see, especially one that I think might be a ghost.
But anyways, that's pretty much all that's been going on with me this first month of summer. I'm terribly boring. And I am loving every second of it. Furreal.