Regarding My Last Post

I realize that with my last post, I have offended friends, family, and my readers. Please know that this was never my intention. I apologize for my delivery and for hurting your feelings, but I cannot apologize for the way I feel. I have had a handful of people very angrily send me emails and other messages telling me how wrong they think I am and telling me that my feeling this way will eventual lead to me falling away from the LDS church. With that, let me make this very clear. Over the last year, I almost left the church completely for matters completely irrelevant to this post. Realizing how much the church actually meant to me, I decided to come back and have tried to do so with full force and much vigor. For the last few months, I have done everything I possibly can to strengthen my faith and to better my relationship with God. I read at least one chapter from the Book of Mormon everyday and listen to a conference talk every night before I go to sleep. The more I jump into the gospel, the more I have a burning desire to help people, which is exactly why I wrote my last post.
I feel like the LGBT community should have the same rights as everyone else. Simple as that. I do not condone the lifestyle and I admit that its uncomfortable for me at times to witness and to talk about. HOWEVER, they are still human beings, they still are Americans, and they still have their free agency. If that it their lifestyle of choice, it is completely THIER choice to make and they should have the RIGHT to make that choice. For anyone to tell me that I am going to fall away from the church because I believe in RIGHTS is wrong. My opinion of this matter has nothing to do with the church, nor does it effect my faith and loyalty. It's very hurtful for someone to think they are above me enough to tell me that I am harming myself by trying to do as we are taught and to help others.
And this is where I drop the topic. I will not be posting anything else regarding politics on this blog. Again, my apologizes go out to those I may have hurt. I never meant to hurt anyone, but rather defend those who were already hurting.

BSA Ban on Gays

Let me start out by saying this: no, I am not a lesbian, nor am I bisexual. I am 100% heterosexual. I like men and I like them a lot. I do not have any close family members who are homosexual. I do not have any close friends who are homosexual. I don't have anyone close to me that is homosexual. With that in mind, I want you as my reader to understand that nobody is putting me up to this and that I am writing this post on my own freewill and I personally feel inclined to do so.

I think our country is getting absolutely ridiculous. I honestly feel as though we are back to the 1960s. Someone, please explain to me how the two pictures I have included in this post are different from each other. I feel like this has gone far enough and I refuse to sit by another second and not let my voice be heard.

If you have not be informed of the recent BSA ban on gays, here's the link.

Honestly, I can understand the other side of the matter, of why some people would feel that this action is okay and appropriate. But to me, that does NOT make it okay in my eyes.

A lot of people are saying things like "Good on the BSA for stinking up for their values" and "Now my son is safe from pedophiles". Ok, wow. First of all, your son isn't any safer than he was before. Fact: Homosexuality rarely plays a role in pedophiles. Secondly, if you have a "value" to not associate with someone because of their sexual orientation or you aren't going to allow someone into a nationwide club because they are gay, I hope you realize that your so called "value" is hurting millions of people. What a great value to have, I hope you're proud of yourself. Now, I'm not saying that you should go out of your way to invite them into your tight knit communities or even like them, but to discriminate like this is wrong. And it is indeed discrimination, hands down. If the Boy Scouts of America really think homosexuals are such a big problem, I would think that their course of action would be to try and teach these boys to be good people, not send them the message that they aren't good enough to be a part of something. I never heard of a program that was above teaching someone life skills until now and it indeed is appalling to me. I think James Morrison Jr said it best: "The Boy Scouts of America should belong to al our country's young men regardless to their race, orientation, or religion."

As for me, if the BSA don't lift this ban, I will never allow my sons to be apart of this program and taught to discriminate against someone because that is exactly what this action is teaching all scouts. If I had been a scout and received my eagle, I would follow this man's lead and turn in my eagle award. Shame on you, BSA. I now have very little respect for the BSA program.

People are people, regardless to what they believe. You are no better than someone else because of your values. Seriously, just let people believe what they want to believe and MOVE ON! Stop the hatred! Stop the hate crimes! Stop the intolerance of letting someone be entitled to love who they want to love! Focus on yourself and stop worrying about what other people believe! Your beliefs do not make you a better person, but your actions do.

Once Upon A Time...

Once upon a time, a prince asked a beautiful princess a very important question. 

"Princess, will you marry me?"

The princess, flattered with his venerability, smiled but replied "No."

The prince fled from the princess with his pride broken...and his heart.

However, the princess lived happily ever after and traveled around the world and met interesting people and learned new stuff and she hooked up with lots and lots of cute boys and nobody thought she was a slut or a floozie. 

She always put herself first and went to rock concerts and girls nights and nobody ever told her

"Go make me a sandwich!"

and she kept her apartment and her last name and all of her shoes and never got cheated on or lied to.

All of her family and friends thought she was freaking awesome and cool and fun.

She made tons of money 

and the toilet seat was always down, like it's supposed to be.

The End

Have You Ever Been in Love?

Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up year heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit or armor, so that nothing can hurt you. Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't you own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness. So simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. Its a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. -Neil Gaiman

Have you ever been in love? I have.

Conversation at Work

So, there I was sitting at work when Soren turns to me and says "Did you know that if every human that has ever lived was given an equal amount of stars, everyone would have a hundred billion stars?" To which I replied "I hope mine are gold stars"...and the conversation proceeded like this:
Soren: I hope I have blue dwarfs
Allie: I hope I have red giants
Soren: My blue dwarfs can take on your red giants
Allie: Nuh-uh. My red giants can step and squish your dwarfs
Soren: No way. Mine will have more armor and will be smarter
Allie: Uhhh....ha ha ha
Soren: You should put this conversation on your blog.

(Red Giant and a Blue Dwarf)

Summer Update

The first month of summer is official come and gone and I can honestly say that I've accomplished almost nothing in that time.
My schedule is the same almost everyday. I wake up, get ready for work, go to work, go home from work, watch a movie while I make dinner, hang out on the balcony with some friends, and then go to bed. Seriously, that's about it.
But lemme tell ya, I'm loving it. I feel so chill this summer! I feel like I can pretty much really do whatever the hell I want without worrying about missing out on something or people wondering what I'm up to and whatnot. For example, last week and last night, I went to bed at freaking 8:30pm! It was amazing! Seriously!
I went into the summer hoping to make some new friends and to take my social life up a notch. I've done almost the complete opposite and I'm so glad it's turning out that way. I mean, I still hang out with people on occasion. I've had Kami, Jared, Ali, and Matt all come for a visit and I've hung out with friends in the Salt Lake valley. So its not like I've cut myself off from the rest of the world. I'm just trying to spend a lot more time with myself. I've also been blessed to have roommates that I never see. Yeah, that sounds totally weird and ridiculous and I honestly would love to spend more time with Melanie, but we don't see each other very often. My other two roommates, I rarely see, especially one that I think might be a ghost.
But anyways, that's pretty much all that's been going on with me this first month of summer. I'm terribly boring. And I am loving every second of it. Furreal.

Dear People: Round Three

If you didn't get to see the previous 2 posts I already did of this, here they are:
Dear People: Round One
Dear People: Round Two
You'll probably be way confused if you don't click on one for an explanation....just saying.

Dear Wilson:

Even though I still think you're really weird, I'm lucky to have you as my neighbor. I'm growing rather fond of you.

Admirably, Tim Taylor

Dear Kermit:

Yep, still mine. 

Love, Piggy

Dear Ghost:

Who ARE you?! Please stop freaking me out and act like a normal human being instead of randomly popping up and being all weird and stuff. I can't think of anything positive to say

Sincerely, the resident

Dear Luke:

No. I am not your father. Nor your mother. Nor your twin sister. Nor your maid!

Love, Allie

Dear Toothless:

Mybad for being so grumpy. How about I'll give you some fish and we'll call it even. Yes?

Honestly, Hiccup

Dear Father Time:

I kinda think you're a creepy stalker person, but I'm glad you aint stalking me. Still, you're kind of a creeper. But I can tell you do it cuz you're lonely. Maybe we should become better friends. After all, we've known each other for quite a while now...

How about it?, Mother Earth

Dear Otter:

You're adorable. You're attractive. You know me like nobody else does. Don't you know that you can have me if you'd only but ask? 

Yearning and hopeful, H20