PDA

Public Display of Affection. PDA. Those 3 letters alone make me cringe, like seriously.

Dear people of this world who participate in CONSTANT PDA:
Freaking stop it! 

I know I've written about my loathing for PDA before, but things don't change much apparently. But seriously, there are few things in this world that make me more uncomfortable than PDA. I'd rather lick the bottom of my shoe or eat an earthworm than have to endure a couple making out with each other.

In my opinion, when a couple can't keep their hands off each other, they are saying "I don't care about anyone else. All I care about are my hormones." Its rude, its disgusting, and it makes many, many people uneasy. Sure, there are some things that are perfectly fine, like holding hands or a hug. But its when you see these two constantly all over each other, barforama. To me, that's just proving that you don't really love the other person, you love their body. People, there is a time and place for everything. Keep your nasty hormones for a time and place where nobody else has to see it. Its a repellent. Just sayin.

Plus, if you are so touchy in public, everyone assumes what else goes on in private.

Re-Evaluation

There comes a time in your life when you just have to take a step back and re-evaluate your life. You have to question yourself; are you the person you want to be or working towards becoming so? What really matters to you? What are you willing to fight for? Who matters and who doesn't? Where are you going?

I have really taken a step back the past week or so and realized a couple of things about myself. Because this is my blog and I live in America and have freedom of speech, I am going to tell you what I have learned about myself.

• I really care alot about people. Probably more than need-be. I genuinely care about others' welfare and happiness. If I feel like I can contribute to making their day a little brighter, I try to take that opportunity, mostly just secretly though. 
• Piggy-backing the previous, I do not like disliking people. If I feel like I am starting to dislike someone, I feel like the way to cure that is to get to know that person better. You can't dislike someone that you understand.
• I can be a very powerful influence for good. I have to potential to teach others and help them make good and righteous decisions if they so choose to confide in me. 
• I am WAY too loud for my own good. I laugh loud, I talk loud, I sing loud, I whisper loud....I need to definitely be more still and need to turn on the "gentle" switch on my vocal chords. 
• I truly love helping others. I feel so important when others feel like they can confide in me and are able to lean on me for anything. I dunno if it's selfish or not, but I would rather deal with other people's issues (or rather help them through their issues) than deal with my own. I tend to get consumed in my own problems when I'm not helping someone else. 
• I need to be more organized. The last month or so, I have just left my stuff all over my apartment and had a messy bedroom, etc. I tend to get that way when I'm stressed, which is ironic because I feel so much more at peace when everything is in it's place. 
• I love cooking. So much. Probably because I like eating. And I like being able to control what I eat. 
• I adore my family. I stink at letting them know how much I love them, but I seriously would be so incredibly lost without them and their support. They mean everything to me. 
• The Lord loves me. He is mindful of me and my afflictions and the yearnings of my soul. I really need to focus more on Him and serve Him better. Hopefully by my new efforts in helping others I can find a way to bring others closer to Him as well.
• I find PDA (public display of affection) revolting. Barf-a-rama! Go find a freaking room!
• My roommates are so amazing! I love Morgan and Kami and Amber SO much! The Lord clearly knew what He was doing when He put us together.
• I can let go and still be okay. 

New Blog

Hey everyone! Just letting you know that aside from this blog, I have started another blog. The other blog will consist of random things I cook and am proud of, or things that I think the rest of the world should experience and cook for themselves. I am seriously falling madly in love with cooking!!! Therefore, I created another blog dedicated just to cooking! So, here's the link to my other blog. Enjoy! Bon appetite!

http://a-la-alleroonie.blogspot.com

Perspective

I recently have been struggling alot recently because I feel like one of my best friends has been pushing me away. That obviously really bothers me because he means so much to me and I truly value him as a friend and the role he plays in my life. But I also need to remember that people come and go from our lives and sometimes you just have to let go.
Well this is never easy for me, especially when i feel like I still need that person. So I've been really bothered because I feel like I have been losing him....until I looked at it a different way. This is going to prove to you how big of a brat I am but this new perspective I have makes me feel better about things. So here's my new perspective on the situation: I'm not losing him, he's losing me. He's the one pushing me away, this is all his choice regardless to what I try to do to repair it.
And that reminds me that attitude is everything. So is perspective.

Loneliness

I'm consumed. No words can express the loneliness I feel in my heart. When once I was surrounded by those I love dearly and who I knew loved me now stands acquaintances and friends I am getting to know better. But there are those I miss so dearly that my heart just feels so defeated.
I don't get close to people very easily. When I feel like I'm getting too close to someone, I run away. That's just how I've always been. Nevertheless, I've always had at least one person that I knew I could rely on, someone I felt close to, that I could tell anything to. Unfortunately, I don't even feel like I have one person. I felt like I had one for a while, but that person has pushed me away and changed in a way that I don't even know who they are anymore. This makes me question myself and wonder if I even know who I myself am. Who am I?!
I feel so alone. I sit in large crowds most of the time, but feel so ignored and unnoticed. It shouldn't matter, I should be able to be enough for myself. I shouldn't need anyone else. Oh, but how I ache for a friend, a TRUE friend. I feel like I can trust nobody though. Not even myself.
I screw everything up. I ruin everything. I don't know how to change. I'm lost.
Who am I?

Blue

I never had a blue blog before and I found this background and thought it was cute. Plus, blue is the color the represents relaxation and renewal, which is exactly what I'm trying to focus on with my life. Yeah, I don't have anything to say other than that. Sorry. I'm a loserface ;)

Here We Go Again...

Sorry you haven't heard from me in almost a month. Life has just been so crazy.

Another year of school. I have just completed the first week of my 4th year of college. I'm back at Utah State for the second year. Its going to be a really interesting year, thats for sure. This is the first time I have a job while being a full time student. I'm working on campus as an office assistant at the IT Helpdesk and so far, it is a pretty stimulating job. Lots of challenges but I learn something new every single shift and I seriously LOVE the girls I work with, they are just adorable.
I also am most likely no longer a social work major, which pretty much breaks my heart, but sometimes you have to make changes. At the moment, I am leaning towards majoring in public relations, but I haven't declared just yet.
I have the most AMAZING roommates! This is the fourth time I didn't request any roommates, but this is the first time I've actually known any of them before school started. I seriously feel like I just got so lucky to be placed with these girls. I feel like there is so much I can learn from each of them. Oh, its going to be a fun year with them, I can already tell.
Hmmm...what else can I tell you that you'd care to know....
I'm an aunt now! My sister had her baby on Wednesday. Brenna Jayne <3  I got to see her when she was only a few hours old and immediately fell in love with her.
Thats really all I can come up with. Perhaps my next post will be more interesting.  ;)