There's 104 Days of Summer Vacation...

What an interesting summer break its been so far!

Interesting things that have happened:

• My family flew to California and went to Magic Mountain. It was AWESOME!!! They has the most intense coasters I'd ever been on! It was such a long day though. We flew out at 5am and flew home on the same day around 9pm.
• I completed one of my summer goals, way faster than I expected if I might add, and purchased a car. I got it for a fabulous deal, a real steal! (Rhyme, ha.) This car was definitely an answer to my prayers in more ways than one. Its a manual and I am learning how to drive that and its really frustrating for me. Hopefully I'll get it down soon so I can go visit friends across the state! :D

• Another "big" thing that's happened is that I received a letter in the mail yesterday informing me that I was not accepted into the social work program for my major up at Utah State. Great. Now what am I supposed to do with my life? What am supposed to go into? Because of this, I will have to add on at LEAST another full year before I can graduate, if that ever happens. I'll be starting my senior year of college in August and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. Sure, I have an associates degree, but really? All that is is a piece of paper, honestly. I sometimes feel like I'm just wasting my time and money at school. I love learning, don't get me wrong! But I just don't have anything to show for it and it bothers me greatly. Getting my bachelors degree just seems so far off and I honestly don't know if it will even happen at this point. Ugh, what to do?!
• I am attending the singles ward here in South Jordan and its really interesting to see some kids from my high school class and how much they have changed since graduating. Its also kinda awesome that I am becoming better friends with people I knew in high school, but didn't have the opportunity to get to know better than an aquaintence.

Well, I think that's basically it. If I think of anything else to fill you in on, I'll let you know.

Hidden in Christ

I just came across a quote on a friend's facebook page that was just like a slap in the face to me. It touched me so much that I am now blogging about it! Here's the quote:

"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man has to seek Him to find her."

OH MAH GOSH!!! Is that not like most brilliant thing you have ever heard?!

Maybe I'm just a little crazy here, but I seriously cannot even describe how much I love this. I can guarantee that in the matter of minutes, this quote will be posted on my bathroom mirror so

that every time I look at myself, I can have a fantastic reminder how I am and who loves me more than anyone else possibly can. I am a daughter of God and I will stand as a witness of Him at all times and in all things and in all places! Hopefully, with all the free time I have this summer, I become better at losing myself in His love and becoming a better servant to Him. I will become worthy of the love He has for me.

To finish, I just have one more quote I found that I really liked:

"Dance with God. He'll let the perfect man cut in."

Change

I have changed my geographical location for the summer to my parent's house in South Jordan. I have changed the rhythm of my days. I have changed my employment. I have changed so much for the summer, I felt it appropriate to change my blog. Its more summery and bright. Um, yeah. Thats like all I've got for now. Yep. Bye.

I Know Its Today

So, I went to my little sister's musical theater performance this last week. They sang a lot of random songs from various musicals with the theme of the performance being "I Wish...". The songs sung were about growing up, being popular, relationships, etc. But there was one song that I had never heard before and it hit me like a slap in the face. I've kind of been obsessed with it the last few days. The words are cute and hilarious and basically are exactly how I feel. So, I will now share this song with you. Its from "Shrek the Musical" and its Fiona singing about waiting for her prince as a little girl, then a teenager, and then a grown woman. Enjoy!

Click here: I Know Its Today

What is Real and What Isn't

Its late and I have alot of feelings inside of myself right now and the only thing I can think to do to let them out is to blog. Depending on how I feel in the morning will determine if I delete this post or not. How exciting.

My sister always complains that I write too much about guys on my blog. Perhaps this is true, but its basically one of the only hobbies I have these days. I am stuck here, waiting for my life to begin and therefore, guys are on my mind quite a bit. So, if you don't want to read about what I have to say about stuff like this, close this window now. Simple as that.

I know I am young. I know I'm not perfect. But I am learning. I am trying to be the best person I can be, but I make mistakes sometimes. Making mistakes is a requirement for getting to know yourself, I think. Sometimes, you have to make mistakes to figure out what is real and what isn't. The hardest part is to not judge others on their mistakes. What's right for most people in most situations isn't right for everyone in every situation. Real morality lies in following your own heart and everyone's heart is different. Sometimes, that's hard to remember.

I don't really know where I am going with this. Its just kind of inside of me. I'm in the situation this bizarre yet common situation where I have fallen for a guy who had become a close friend to me and he unfortunately does not feel the same for me. At all. Surprisingly, being the way I am, its so difficult that it makes being mere friends nearly impossible for me. I'm just not that strong. I am craving summer vacation like I never have before to get away and forget those feelings. I am probably not making any sense and that is okay with me at the moment because life doesn't make sense sometimes and I think its that way on purpose. Its all in the Lord's hands. We can't always see what He wants for us; we just have to sit back and let him take the reins and trust that He knows what He's doing. Yes, easier said than done, but done it will be.

Its time to find a new hobby.